its funny how much food in general is a huge part of our social life. and for that matter. none social life. i need to google all the things you can do with whole wheat dough. i just made 4 lbs of it. im thinking cinnamon rolls. pizza. hot pockets. rolls. hmmm. not sure what else. ok. so the fast when well as i posted last and now i need a new goal. i need to focus on the swich inside me that changes things. i enjoy changing things about myself. i just need to go and research some new stuff to get refocused. new trails. new activities. new experiences. some thing new. why not. im ready. i need to stay on top of the down ward swirl of depression. its hit me before and i will not let it hit me again. i need to read more. as much as anything. its all about investments. in time. in people. in relationships. i also need to get my debt under control. its not much if i compare to others but to me.. its too much if its in the red. i cant wait to get my taxes back and get that taken care of that. im looking forward to so really nice changes here in the near future so for now sweet dreams.
The world is quite
I have learned quit a bit of life lessons this past week. so in no particular order. here they are. There are real supports for artisans. never judge divorced people. even after years and years it is possible to pick up right where you left off. Pack lightly for traveling as much as you can. coffee secretly tastes best at home (even sweetened with molasses.). Fasting is hard and it brings you closer to God even when we fail at it, but its no reason to give up. Home is where we hang our postcards. I must dream bigger and educate myself more. watching love is annoying sometimes. being friends with Non-believers that show better christian character then christians is inspiring. keeping my house clean is very high on my list,i just need to fine tune it. hugs from friends are wonderful. if i want some thing, i need to work a little harder for it. Its o.k. to reinvent your self. the rocky mountains are to be added to my bucket list. 30 is going to rock or ill cry !
Portland. its a good place to be.
Portland…i will explore you.
i sip my Via instant coffee along side of my scrambled eggs. this time i threw in crushed riceworks chips at the last minute. stayed crunchy ! and oh so yummy ! i love finding me twists to my everyday foods.
I went for a more run this morning from 72nd ave to dominos pizza. thats was about 40 mins i think. i needed that. i had been coped up too long. with the snow cabin fever and the 7 hours on the plane. i needed a run. Airports are great. Relevant magazine had some GREAT pod casts to take some notes on from the best of 2010. i also met some nice people along the way. So im sitting here listening to NPR in Oregon. Fast is still going well with no added sugars and I find my self talking to God more. maybe if i talked to him more i wouldnt have forgot my SOCKS ! dang it ! i just bought them ! crap. ok. im off for my lunch with angela and take a bunch of pictures. YAHOO.
in 14 hours.
i should be at the airport. im packed. ready and super excited that i cant calm down to sleep. i have updated pix but ill wait till im bored at the airport to post them. it will give me some thing to do during my 5 hour wait ! oh well. i can read. or play. or what ever. meet people maybe i should meet people. ask them their story. see what they saw. i love airports. im just hoping to not be there more then 7 hours. after that ill have to start getting creative. Portland OR. the futhiest destination on the west coast. Good Lord. can she live any futher ? alaska maybe ? i want to visit there some day. that would rock. i have so many pictures to take. im hoping my cards will be full when i return. i want see everything. but first i must sleep. i have been doing really good on my sugar fast. i have two more weeks to go so drinking on this trip. i need to focus. I pray that he will speak to me during my time away. at home its easy to do too many things. sometimes it kinda defeats the purpose of fasting if im going to be so distracted. so FOCUS ! and getting away is a great thing in this case. i have a lot of thinking to do. about about lot of stuf in my life. im at a platou. so the direction now to unclear. o.k. off to bed. i need to try to sleep. because ill be up for a while. p.s. left my bagels at debbies. enjoy them kids.
peace and grace to you all.
cold and questioning
current mood: mellow mixed with unsettled-ness
Well the Mega Millions didn’t work out this time around. Back to the old drawing board I guess for funds. It’s a bit funny and mind-boggling and a little perplexing the practice of tithing. you take your first 10 percent and give it. Give to get ? give to obey ? Give to what ? why ? why would we be asked to give ? I think its…Give to trust. reliance on the giver of all things good. a steady reminder that my money and stuff is simply that… money and stuff. also that its really not mine at all. When I trust Him to take care of me. He does, as He as been, as He will be. Give to Trust. I have never been with out. In deep need. now im not saying i never will be. and im not going to knock on wood becasue i have a strong belief that He has been taking care of me because i trust him. Now through this fast (day 3) i think i need to rely on him more. with all sorts of stuff. so many things, that i could make a giant list about a poster size and that’s what i need to do. one that is tangible and as a reminder. so place where i can visualy see that I need to trust more…with more… i think this is where my unsetteled-ness tonight comes from. lacking in trust this can make one cold.
peace and warm graces to you .
(more random pictures of my day, enjoy.)
5:15am
I gave myself 30 extra minutes this morning. I reserved one of those spicy chicken biscuits days ago from the chick-fil-a ad. and I was planning on getting up early before work to go get it….well i didn’t. day two of my 21 fast. gave up a greasy spicy chicken biscuit. so i kept my alarm the same time. spent some time this morning getting ready, and when i was done i realized. i had like 45 minutes to just rest and be with God and my second cup of coffee tasted pretty well i might say. a little refocusing this morning was good. reading Isaiah. writing down a few thoughts. the no sugar thing has kicked me in the butt today. i realized how much of a habit it was going for candy in the filing cabinet in my classroom. and how many times did i think today..what things can i eat that are sweet but have no sugar….an apple ,was all i had. it was good. so day two has been a real awaking to how much sugar i “think” i need. no waffles. no cookies. no to lots of things today , no to chocolate at hone, work and at my friends house. its funny how often when you try to escape from something. it tries to just drop in your lap. SO the excercise now is to refocus this energy to productive conversations with a God that is so patient with me. its a good practice and i am beginning to see how things will progress and the direction this is going. a little more thinking of Him and a little less for me and what i “think” i “need”. so No sugar, No white breads, No sweets or desserts, No Alcohol. this is such a small scale of what i think i need. maybe what i “need” is much more then anything i have thought of. He knows. and I do look forward to more self discoveries and God discoveries through this prosess. physical update. i had achy knee joints today at work and a little irritable with people this afternoon and currently fighting a head ache. so bed will com esoon. even though that’s three negatives on the score chart. i dont think that part will last very long. at least i have hope that it won’t. tomorrow will be new.
Grace and Peace to you.
p.s. the lunch was really good. and fresh and filling.
21 days of prayer
Last day of Vacation means two things. time to reflect on the new year. take time to spend with sweet friends and meal planning for work. so this morning. i took note of most of the things that i had in the fridge. and plan breakfasts, lunches and dinners around these items. Most of which are “clean” . also on top of this a yearly challenge at church Ross asked us to as a whole church body to fast and pray for 21 days. three weeks. so after knowing what I had wrote down as to why/ and what i need to seek God for. i was at a lose of what to give up for these next few days. After talking to my sweet friend Debbie i have come up with Zero sugar. alcohol and white breads and noodles and anything fried. i typically stay away from these things any how but these last few weeks at least one of these items has been on my diet daily. So came home and made a fresh clean cabbage salad with grilled chicken. i sampled it after i made it. I CANT wait for lunch tomorrow. its really good. heres what went in it. Cabbage. red onion. carrots. fennel. chives. cilantro. palmagranite seeds. raw sunflower seeds. flax seeds. lime juice. olive oil. and balsamic vinegar.
OH YOU HAVE TO TRY IT. so i have to buy less food after this trip because i will be going to Portland Oregon soon. and wont be here to eat any of it. Im very excited to meet old friends and just be out of the state of Georgia for a while.
May grace and peace be with you.~
